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May, 2019
11Scene One - I have come to a downtown area of a big city with which I am unfamiliar. There is something also about it being a big university. I may have driven here or I may have walked. I don't know where I'll spend the night or where I'll go after that. Then I am in an unfamiliar room or apartment with an attractive, interesting, smart young woman. We are not sleeping together, but we are engaged conversationally and are there just the two of us, and the attraction seems mutual, so it might happen later that we become intimate. The next day, though, I leave to try and find or continue the next part of my trip, and it seems I won't see her again.
Scene Two - Again it is unclear how I have gotten here, whether I walk or drive. Mostly it seems I am on foot. I show up unannounced at the same large room or small apartment as before and, though she invites me in, the attractive young woman here seems preoccupied and busy with a computer or laptop, and I think she is writing a paper or otherwise doing homework for a course. I decide to leave, but, seeing my awkwardness and hesitancy about staying, she invites me to remain at least for awhile. She takes a break from the online business and chats with me. I find under a pillow, a book, or bedding a couple small bottles (6 oz. each) of wine, from where I may have left them when here before. A male friend of hers - I assume he is her boyfriend - shows up, and we are all talking about politics, about which we are in agreement, seeing that things are going badly downhill. The boyfriend is like me only younger and definitely in a relationship with the woman, whereas I am only stopping by and soon will be alone again. Again I am getting ready to leave, though she is polite and suggests I stay longer, but I feel out of place here (three's a crowd?) and that it is time I moved on, though I am again unsure where I'll stay for the night or to where I'll be on my way after that. It seems I leave.
[There are several repetitions of "again." It suggests recurring themes or issues. The problem or challenge in the first scene is repeated in the second and without a positive resolution so far. I am in a place of learning, so perhaps it is partly about gaining some knowledge that is needed. The shadow self, this boyfriend, is like me, and so there must not be that much differentiation between the characters or selves in this dream. Also there is at least the strong suggestion of receptivity to sex, which would imply integration, as does the similarity between me and the shadow self. The phrase "bedding a couple" suggests sex and integration also. The phrases "we are engaged" and "we become intimate" suggest too naturally a closeness between me and the anima, there to show right feeling or attitude: and she is "attractive, interesting, smart" and "young." A couple also of course is about two, which suggests dawning awareness. Young woman and the boyfriend being younger both suggest possible Jung-ian interpretations. Perhaps there is something about which I am complaining (a couple bottles of wine = of whine?). Both scenes to me seem about wondering what is the next purpose or course of my life in these last few or several years before death. The references to drive or driven and uncertainty whether this is how I have arrived or simply walked suggests possible awareness of a decreasing sex drive, natural enough as one gets older and is not in an actively intimate relationship, yet also perhaps reason for concern, at least for the male ego, and of note as one is assessing personal health and potential for remaining into the future.]
