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10/22/06-Smell of terrier hair as my dog squeezes close for play and petting at the bank she goes crazy with outlandish greeting behavior trying in vain to get the attention and touch of a large black delivery truck man gettysburg and all the momentous moments in human history and prehistory in 2036 a large asteroid already sighted may hit earth with enough force to destroy a major city or send skyscraper height tsunamis far inland will we be able to alter its trajectory or get ready for this and a myriad other looming potential disasters over the next two to four decades seldom before in recorded times has so much been so weighed in the balance for so many in such a truncated span grief at what has already been lost terror over what is yet to come loneliness that so few others can see and feel the imminent threats unfazed most are going on as usual with their ordinary lives it may in a way be all the same to me for in the next generation or so two at the most the dust and vapors that once were my animated self will be scattered buried or wafted off upon the wind unnoticed as a tiny puff of sea breeze over an empty ocean and yet like a parent for the welfare of his offspring theirs and the succeeding lineage I do still care and so wish that enough might share that concern lest for lack of even trying all might be lost with a longer larger vision though it is apparent what is to happen has already occurred we have but to experience it in our more or less aware or sleep cycles each instant exactly as it is just as inexorably it always was and will always be...
10/17/06-Tuesday is laundry day at our house at least once a month except we are staying in touch with our roots by doing it at the local laundromat a mile or so down the road coffee and a blueberry muffin from a quickymart round out the start of a new diurnal rotation we are trying out this old new laundry place after many years away doing it elsewhere since the other locations have really gone downhill who knows we might be soon in the market for a washer dryer combo to be put in at home wonder if installation is extra but because we are not sure how much longer we shall even be residing at the same digs there is hesitation a reluctance to put out that much money at once on stuff the next real estate buyer might expect to be there as part of the deal it is technically autumn now but the high for the day is in the nineties tonight my book group discusses agatha christie's the sleeping murder not one of my favorite mysteries the doors are open here at the laundry establishment and I hear the nearby traffic noises but no birds or dogs or cows not even any human voices and we have this place entirely to ourselves indeed except for the sounds of commuters and they could be taped there is no clue that anyone else is left alive on this pearly world perhaps after all we are in some in between place an endless dream loop maybe and this self-serve laundry shop is now the sum total of existence of course that's ridiculous but it is a useful catalyst for insight to wonder about one's current circumstances what if this just as it is would be our experience forever how might these surroundings in and of themselves at first however unlikely seeming be a part of perfection...
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